The first weekend in December we rushed to my OB, something was very wrong. We found out that my uterus was completely prolapsed. It took forever for the dr to find the little heartbeat but he finally did. I had cried and cried as I watched him search and search for that heartbeat. Jacob had to come with us since it was unexpected. I remember thinking, "my 2 year old is going to have to watch us learn that we will loss another baby. how can I disguise my grief?" We left the office with a lot of questions and knowing a lifestyle change was about to take place. We were 8 hours from family and I needed to restrict my activity. We had out of town company, a weekend full of activities for church, I was scheduled to host the entire church staff at our house in 48 hours, we were contemplating and praying through a major move and relocation, and realized we may have to move and find another dr during a complicated pregnancy. We LOVE my previous dr and the thought of walking a scary road without him was overwhelming.
I remember thinking about the uncertain days ahead and thinking, "I will have this baby anywhere, with any doctor, anyway, he can come out my ear just please let him (or her) live." I pleaded with the Lord to allow me to carry this baby to a healthy age. I would imagine talking to the baby and asking him to "hang on." (literally!) I hung onto the verse from Ps 139:13 and imagined that the Lord had knit together this little baby in my womb. My womb was not in the right place but He had knitted him or her there!
Here we are about 29 weeks later. The irony is that tomorrow we will go and coax little (or not so little) Logan to join us in this world. No, I never thought we would make it to June 11th but for that I am so thankful!
Today was not spent cleaning my house, or nesting. I have been nesting! I took in every little bit with Jacob, we played, read and went to the pool. I snuggled with him extra when he woke up from his nap and for that time, I am thankful too!
We will try to update with pictures as soon as we can but you know that time always goes by fast so we will see.....
7 comments:
We enjoy your blog and are excited that "D" day is almost here. You each remain in our thoughts and prayers. June 11th is a special day in our family since it's Dustin's and Emily's birthday. Emily will be 9. We anxiously await news of Logan's birth and seeing pics.
April! We will be praying that everything goes smoothly!! Can't wait to see pictures and meet baby Logan. I'm sure Jacob will be a very proud big brother :)
Can't believe the day is finally here! We'll be thinking about you tomorrow.
What a great day for a baby!! I pray your birth experience will be good (and fast ;) ) and I know you can't wait to hold Logan in your arms!
Praying for you this morning - all 4 of you. We will all be ready to hear here in the old office. We love you all!
I saw on Carlos' Twiter that the Baby is here!!! Welcome Baby and our best wishes to the rest of the family. We love you.
Fermin & Carmen Whittaker
What a great post April. I got chills when I was reading it. Congrats on your beautiful family! Dayle
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