This week would have been the due date for the little one we lost in February. At the time, September seemed so long to wait while I had thoughts of,..."I would have been 4 months pregnant"......"By now, we would have found out if we were having a boy or a girl"....."We would be setting up a nursery by now"....in these last couple of weeks,..."We would be about to bring our baby home." Now I know that just because the due date is passed, those thoughts don't end. Now they are,..."How would Jacob have been adjusting?"...."Would the baby have been early like Jacob?"....."I would be juggling two right now."
I am thankful the Lord has given me a verse to remind me of His compassion for me, "The righteous cry out and the Lord hears them; He delivers them from their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:17-18
A couple of weeks ago thinking of the days that were ahead, I wanted to wake up and it magically be the end of September. I realize that if I had done what I wanted to do a couple of weeks ago, I would have missed many moments of blessings. Jacob is at a very special age (aren't they all?) He is learning so much and constantly amazes me and cracks me up! On Sunday, he played in the rain for the first time. I would not have missed that for the world. Today, I am thankful for simple moments like this: